Sunday, April 15, 2018

Fear or paranoia

Recently I was informed that indeed I was not crazy as I suffer from gastrointestinal issues. I was recently diagnosed as having a redundant colon. I couldn't help but feel on one hand "relieved" as I knew I was not making up all these IBS issues then on the other hand, I felt "angry" as I kept thinking about how all these years, I was told I was responsible for my cramps: I was anxious. 
My question is can I trust the medical field? I had to have internal bleeding to uncover my "abnormal" colon as the surgeon described it, while I had to question if perhaps my very long "so called abnormal" was maybe what a friend thought was "redundant colon". Well, it was confirmed indeed I have a redundant colon and IBS is a symptom of my dysfunctional gastrointestinal system. 

I have been told for years it was my anxiety, which caused all my cramps and other gastrointestinal discomfort. Today, I am told that my chronic pain in my guts is a symptom of my dysfunctional gastrointestinal system. Indeed, it is common for individual with autism to suffer from such. So, in other words, it is now confirmed I was not insane, I was in pain because my gastrointestinal is inflamed. I am advised to change my diet and attempt to follow the FODMOP diet. 

Well, I admit I feel reluctant to trust anyone in the medical field. For years, I was told I had IBS as I was anxious. Today, I am told IBS is a symptom of redundant colon and other gastrointestinal complications still unknown to the medical field though known to be common among individuals with autism. Great, I am not crazy.